KT

bonjour!

Thursday- Mmmmm Donuts in Jazz. Happy birthday to MArcus. haha Hoang kept poking jennifer duarte with his umbrella. XDD Shes soo ticklish!! I have to wear like armor to school so hoang doesnt tickle me to death. Im usually not ticklish. O_o what an anomaly...

Friday- What a horrible horrible day it was...First, i get a math test... then i get my math test back with the average grade i always get...then i miss two questions on my perez test...im probably going to get a B in that class, and shatter my dreams of being soluditorian..then band i move down, and then shirley cant come to her party, destroying all plans.. damn that was a freaking crapload. I was going to go berserk..just one more thing could've set me off..
Im already having a bad day..Then i notice that my flute wasnt in its slot.. Im looking EVERYWHERE for it.. then i tell mrs. chase and she tells me to look everywhere. I could tell hoang was worried too. He lent me a chair so i could look in the higher slots if it were there..no use..then i remembered that i left it at home. I got down from the chair, and sat down with my face buried in my hands. How could i have been so STUPId?!?!?!!?!?!? of all the god damn days that i could've forgotten it, it was on challenges day..the LAST challenge until the freaking CONCERT!!!! I wanted to scream! Then i stood up and i told mrs. chase that i probably left it home. I could tell she was surprised..even at break i was like hah, when if all the section leaders move down? and well that revelation unraveled and became a reality. I sat down inmy chair and tried to do my math homework and get the thought of maybe going down to last chair out, but i couldnt.. i kinda slammed the pencil into my binder and it screeched off and it gashed my hand. Like anything else could've gone worse. Then i tried to hold in from crying. I havent cried in forever and that was the moment that i was going to? Hah. no way.. not in front of everyone in the band! I pretended everything was alright, but i couldnt stand the thought of being second for the concert! I COULDNT!! You might think its stupid that i was so upset...but..you dont understand. I never understood in the past why the first chair people, or anyone started crying when they went down.. I said to myself it was stupid to cry over something so small, but..i understand now.. If you love what you're doing.. and you lost a chair to someone over a stupid mistake that YOU caused.. your self esteem just plummets. No, not self-esteem...but your confidence i suppose would rather fit the sentence better. I tried, i almost teared but i closed my eyes and i told myself not to cry..i couldnt. i wouldnt. but, the amazing thing is, that even though i missed a challenge, i actually TIED with rina...i must've gotten a heck of a lot of points.. but since i didnt bring my instrument..i went to second instead..i'll probably hate myself forever for forgetting my instrument.. I practiced and worked hard for 4 months to try to keep my chair in time for the concert..but.. all my work and toil went right down the drain.. and now i have to work another 4 months until the spring concert.. well...at least i dont have to come early for the concert to set up chairs. heh..or get the music folders. Oh well.. this just makes me want to try harder next time. I'll shrug it off no prob just like hoang.. Turns out me hoang nad eric, past first chair kids went down to second. =/ C'mon hoang! lets kick their arses next challenges!
went home.. then towards the end of the day. my day was totally turned around.I had one heck of a laughh. I laughed so hard i thought i was gonna throw up. Then i couldnt stop laughing and i kept laughing until my stomach hurt alot. Its nice to have close friends to turn your day from crap to =).. thanks quyen and stacy.

Saturday- Went to the Jars of Clay concert. Man i felt soo sick. @_@... I slept the whole way. But it was raining..so pretty. Rain is like a lullaby to me.. Then we got there and it was cold.. Then we went inside and waited till the concert started. I wanted a shirt, but they were too expensive,, and they didnt even have my size.. and yvonne bought me the pins!! ^^ that made my day so much! I told her she didnt have to.. but she bought them without my knowing and presented them to me. My face just lit up and i hugged her. ahaha. Valerie, Deborah, kristine, and i were talking about marilyn manson and nonsense like that on our way to the concert. the ride back was quite cuz everyone slept. cept kristine cuz she was driving, =P Then we went to eat at in-n-out.. yum.. that made my day even more. Then some kids with the red wristbands (ours were green) were like Hello fellow concert-ers! hah it was funny. Then got home around 1 and read until 2.

sunday-Went to churchh.. yepyep. Then after church alex went with jeff home while kristine, andy, matt, and i raced them. Of course we won, but hha kristine was driving the van and jeff was driving his honda civic. Kristine said that jeff was a very cautious driver. =/ wow i havent seen jeff in a long time. Then again, i hadnt seen Christina in a long time either. It was nice to see some old faces. Then went to borders and best buy. At best buy i just looked at anime dvds haha. Then at borders i read the 8th and final book of chobits. T___T ITS SO WONDERFUL.. I love chobits.. but its over.. Must find a new favorite manga..oh Hiroyasu Ueda, you slay me! HAHAHAHAHA quyens saying. hmmm and Hiromu Shinbo, and you mustn't forget Zima. XD~~ haha Hideki is so sweet to chii *WIpes a tear* The ending is so sweet too..arghh i hate Omura Yumi!!! Curse her!! Taking away Ueda from me!! gr... that darn 17 year old! *snaps* ANYWAYS.. Then headed hooooome.

Mondayyy-Was going to the mall until someone bailed on me. *cough cough* HAHAHA. jpjp. its cool.
Yay i acutally got to sleep in today.. On friday i cant sleep in cuz on saturday i have piano at 9:45 then i cant sleep in on saturdays cuz i have church on sunday.. Yep.. so today i had a great sleep. I just lounged around! ^^ hooray! i read somebooks and then drew. lala.

Yea.. I've decided that if this blog were to be part of my lifestyle, i should have the right and duty to express all of my new found emotions into this. soo.. I now welcome you to emoticon cityy. haha

posted by KT @ 7:50 PM