KT

I'm officially screwed. On this day, August 15, two weeks before school starts, I will state that I have not started my summer reading. Am I screwed? ROYALLY. Do I care? I get panic attacks. Do these panic attacks urge me to start? No. Am I a freaking retard for not doing it? Yes.

To add to this, I officially died, rejuvenate myself, died again, and miraculously revived myself again. Why? Let's just say that my interpersonal relationship, my unstated expectations of JJ have not been met. My cousin thinks I'm crazy if I believe the unbelievably believable rumors. I'm happy that he's happy. Does this event change my view on him? No. It might have, for a split second, where my eyes had wandered towards his other group member. Namely, Yunho. Did I realize my mistake in doing so? Yes. Was I being selfish by doing so? Yes. How do I feel now? Indifferent. Not in a sense that I don't care about him. Don't get me wrong. Indifferent on the subject matter. Indifference to whether or not the rumors are true. Either way, the JJ that I'm viewing through my computer is still the same. He hasn't turned into some hideous monster due to this. I still care for him the same. Don't worry, my obsession is still at its peak, thank you very much. Especially since Isabelle went psychopathic on me yesterday for my split second affair. Hahaha. I'm not a baramdoongi!
Even so, I highly doubt they would tie the knot. Hopefully not. She's too young. His loving parents wouldn't approve. But, maybe the girl is dilusional and only believes that they're together. She IS, after all, a fifteen year old African American girl living in New York, who loves poetry and teaches Tae Kwon Do. No negative connotation intended.

posted by KT @ 6:04 PM