KT

ahh.. so bored. I have absolutely nothing to do than repeatedly update this blog of mine., -___-..sad yes.. i know. I dont feel like getting off my away message either. Not in the mood to talking to people. eh... gm-11 to do.. oh well screw math. i have a B in that class.. well only currently... trimester ends in feb.. *shrugs* No soludictorian? Maybe.. Man i dont really feel like trying in school blehh or anything in general. Oh well..gotta keep my momma proud. In perez i just slept. Blah wanted to get away from that class.=__= perez angers me so... just the sound if his voice makes my skin crawl...then i claw at the desk.. Teachers really dont know how much i dislike them because they think im a goody girl that loves everyone ^^. Wrong, bucko. The only teacher i really like is Mrs. Chase. everyone else...eh.. especially MRS COSGROVE AHHH. i told taylor that if my progress report grade was a B i would throw my binder at her. and guess what? i got a B.. i did throw my binder but it just landed on the floor. The thing about Blogs or xanga, diaryland, etc. you cant really say how you feel. Because isnt this stuff supposed to be personal? i wish i didnt care and said everything i felt like. but i cant. grr..cuz everyone can see it. thats why blogs all you do is say stuff that isnt really relevant to what you are feeling but more along the lines of what you just did or where you went and crap like that. Challenges.. Man.. I dont wanna move down. Darn f-ing challenges. *bleep bleep bleep bleep bleep* *rants on and on* AGH. i feel this unending anger right now. *eye twitches* Yeayea u can say watever that im always mad or anal or watever but there's no denying it. i havent totally lost it yet though..i wonder what it feels like to be so consumed in anger that you do something so drastic and you dont realize you've done it for a while because you're in such shock. I wonder... i hear its a feeling of Bliss, of happiness carrying out your rage onto something or someone. then you realize you did something bad and yet in your psychotic attempt to beleive you didnt do it, you laugh like a maniac, then everyone thinks you're crazy. Hm. yea. I wonder how it feels to sleep for a week..just sleeping..oh dear god i want to sleep..Just resting not worrying about school, or anything.. just relaxing as if tomorrow is your last day on the face of this earth. hm,, i just wonder how it feels, to be in the shoes of someone who's experiencing just pure joy. it would be interesting..quite..i think im just gonna knock myself out soon. just so tired.. i dont think im just sleepy. just tired. tired of everything =____________=. man. i havent read a good book in a while. time to look for a book to be into. man.. i wish i could write poetry well..but no im within this cursed mind of mine that cannot think, solve, or be creative. BAH. one thing i can do is eat and be a procrastinator. hehe thats right, everyone is insane...im the only sane one..i'll just keep on thinking that..

posted by KT @ 8:38 PM