KT

Came back from Hulls. Promised Stacy to update about my UNDYING HATRED about that place. When Stacy and I were driving home, we had quite an interesting conversation. I'm so pissed off right now, and I dont even know why. Just SEEING Alex makes we want to BREAK HIS NECK.
Just snap it like a twig.. Okay, so we basically had a 100 question vocabulary test. IT WAS INSANE. Everyone was freaking out. I was basically SCREWED, and I felt so jaded about the whole thing that it scares me. I wouldn't call it apathetic.. actually, I would. My parents are wasting 1700 dollars on a place that wont even help me, because I want to major in something NOT academic. Design maybe. Yeah, and all you retards can say I'll get nothing out of going to design school, but I wont get anything out of committing suicide from going to an Ivy League school either, would I? Besides, Its not as if I can get into a good school anyway. Not Ivy League. Definately not Ivy League. Just some regular UC. Why do that and major in the typical bioengineering field, when you could major in something you like? I just dont find any academic courses interesting. I'm not good at any academic courses either. I just get along.
Alex didnt have a freaking life back then, so his only comfort was studying. He basically LOST his youth from all that disgusting study time. I bet he's like Michael Jackson. I mean, of course I want to be successful, but I cant see myself becoming successful. I'll just go to a mediocre school and get a mediocre job. Then I'll be compared to the more successful friends or family of mine. Bash to my ego. Greeeeeeaaaaat. I wish I was in Stacy's class with Logan and Andrew. The kids in my class are too disgustingly smart. I gotta get out. I have to "sprint" in order to keep up with their "walk." I just hate Alex so much. It's like theres a time bomb ticking in my head and I dont know if I can last 22 weeks...When I got out of the car and into my room, I started punching my pillows, the wall, the floor, etc.. because I felt so frustrated and ashamed. Next time, I can NOT stare at his premature balding. AUGH..He's just so..easily hateable. Slave driver I say. The man without skin. -.- There's so much more I want to say, but I promised myself I wouldn't curse. darn.

posted by KT @ 2:05 PM